So EAT might as well be a four letter word! It has become my arch nemesis. It seems to happen more often then the sleep and poop. I put a lot of thought into the decision to breast feed. As a NICU nurse, I know all the benefits and perks of breast milk and breast feeding. I also came in (what I thought) prepared for the bumps in the road because of what I saw moms go through.
Well let me tell you all the talks and research and what I thought I knew, has not prepared me! On a daily basis, I feel like I have no clue what I am doing! I am a rule follower, I love rules! And breast feeding has no set rules. Each baby and each momma are completely different.
I have no clue when I am supposed to switch sides, when he is finished, how to fix a bad latch, and etc. And on top of that I am supposed to feed a 10lb baby!!! And my boobs are officially bowling balls sitting on my chest.
But saying all that, I love having built in snuggle time every 2-3 hours. I love those sweet moments when I can sequester myself and just love on my sweet boy. I was skeptical of the "bond" they spoke of between moms and breast fed babies. I am now a believer!
So as Luke and I go on this journey of both of us learning how to do this together, I am cherishing every exhausted, joyous, painful moment.