We are blessed enough to not have to use daycare at this time. Matthew and I work opposite schedules, he works weekends (Sat, Sun, Mon) and I work Mon-Fri. So Sour will be a stay at home dad from Tuesday-Friday. Mondays Luke gets to stay with his MiMi (my MIL).
This all makes for an easier transition on me. I think if I had to drop him off somewhere on Wednesday, I might have just kept driving! It was so much easier to leave him snuggled up in his bed.
I had a little cry the first day with some anxiety, second day was better leaving but it seemed like a longer day, and the third was tougher leaving because he was awake and playing. I wanted to jump back on the bed and play with the little munchkin!
Monday will be the real test to see if I can get him and myself up and out the door and get to work on time. And let's see if I can leave without making any big scene!
I know I really do want to work, but I have the worse momma's guilt for leaving him. I know I am going to miss all the big stuff. And I hate to think he probably doesn't even notice I am gone all day!
Sour passed with flying colors this week! He is getting used to the early mornings, and learning to rest/nap whenever Luke is. He did have a 4 diaper explosion on the first day they both seemed to survive through. And I have yet to see either one if them out of pajamas!
To say the least, I am blessed. I have a fantastic husband, a job to go back to, a precious baby boy, and a super helpful MIL. Along with many more things.
I remember having to leave my oldest when I had to go to work. It was super hard. I'm lucky to be able to stay home with my youngest two not although some days a job doesn't sound to bad (ha ha)!
ReplyDeleteGlad you got a good support system. Leaving him with Dad has to be a lot easier than with strangers :)